I'm having to learn that I am NOT a product of my environment. I was raised in one of the most disheartening situations that a child could be reared in. Violent poverty. Broken home. Domestic violence. Sometimes I honestly have to FORCE myself to remember that I am not that child anymore. God turned all of that. It's like a dream sometimes when I look around. I'm in a good place financially but the voice of poverty still rings in my ears at times. I remember reading a story as a child called The Rocking-Horse Winner", a short story by D. H. Lawrence. In the story a young boy, Paul, talks about how poverty whispered from every corner of his house that "there must be more money..." His quest to obtain that money pushed him to the point where he lost his life. That whisper sometimes plagues me when I allow it. I have to remind myself that God is my source and his abundance never runs out. the Bible tells us in John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly..." A more abundant life is what God has chosen for us. All I have to do is reach for God and the directions he has for my life. I will never be without. I will never be in lack. I'm grateful for where I am and EXCITED about where God is taking me. I have absolute JOY when I imagine where this is all going because the Bible says that God "is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think..." I have LOFTY dreams and God is able to do abundantly above what I can even imagine???
I understand those who went through it. You just have to remember that your past isn't what you are. EVEN if that past was just last night. God loves you. God wants to take you take a place of peace, where it's just you and him. Where he can protect you and keep you and love on you. You're no longer where you were. Now you need to shine in God where you are.
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