Silence

Recently lost a loved one.  It brought back memories of when my mother passed away. I was staying in her house.  I recall the thing that bothered me the most about her death wasn't our relationship.  Of course every negative thing came up.  I lamented that I could have been a much better son to her.  Maybe I should have driven her that day, but I had to work the next morning and there was no way I would have made back in time.  Maybe I should have spent more time with her.  All kinds of stuff.  I remember the good things too.  I remembered what we'd done for her last birthday.  I remembered that time when she'd left her medication at the house and I had to go all the way back from the airport to get them.  I made it back before her flight left.  I also remembered the shock on her face when I gave her the meds and some money instead of attitude. No... none of that really resinates, though.  What's hardest about all of this is that I can't hear her voice anymore.  We cleaned up all of the stuff out of her hospital room.  And I went back to the house and heard nothing. I sat there listening to the electrical currents in house buzz.  The loudest thing in the house was the silence.  

 

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